Disappointed!

I'm totally disappointed at myself today, feeling like a loser so I'm going to tell you. Today, I decided to stay home since it was raining hard when I woke up and I'm not feeling like get dress and get outside (I'm still kinda regret for this, such a lazy asshole). So I thought that if I was to stay home then I would still get all my work done on time BUT it's not like what I expected. When I was on the computer, I didn't even bother to think about anything school related. All I did the whole day were listen to music, facebook, read news, and LOL. Now looking back, I'm such a time-waster and a slacker. No wonder why I would never get better at anything since I always put things off and rush them on the last minute. If I wanted to change my life then I gotta take a step up and change my lifestyle now otherwise it would be a big fail in the future. I keep thinking Calc final was no big deal and just procrastinate and procrastinate until now. I didn't study hardly at all today BECAUSE I'm at home. I don't get that learning attitude when I'm at home, I know it's weird but true, F*ck. I should just go to school. F*ck LOL game (it's a big time-waster), F*ck the Internet for making me become addicted and dependent on it. Now I'm just blaming everything I could think of. F*ck myself. Ok tomorrow is the big day, I could win it or lose it. I have to dedicate 3 hours tomorrow to study for this fking final. I'm serious I'm gonna do it for real.. not putting this off anymore. I'm commited to change. Let's see how it goes...