Just a short note

I know it's been awhile since the last time I've written a journal, life has been pretty busy for me (just another excuse for being lazy *). During my whole spring break, I didn't really do anything much. All day everyday I'm playing LOL, reading news, and yea that's all. So fking BORING. Hell naw I actually wanna go back to school. I've been waiting for this Indian kid's phone call. I asked him a few weeks ago to hit me up during the break and hang out somewhere fun and he said he definitely will but he is acting like an a** and didn't even remember. So today I went to my friend's party, it was the most boring experience I had ever encountered. I met some of his friends and I tried to talk to each one of them. It was kinda awkward at first but it gets better as time goes on. I tried to blend in the group by asking every person that I sat with. I met an old best friend of mine back from middle school. He hasn't changed since when the time I knew him except that at least he's trying to speak English now. He is still quiet, talks soft, and acts weird. I learned a lesson today that no matter how strong the friendship developed, as time goes on every person has his/her own way. I can't just stick to my friends and think that they all changed don't like to be my friend anymore. I'm eager to go back to school and meet some new friends, create a relationship with more people, and not dependable on some of my few close friends. In the future, each of us will have to walk on different paths, experience different life, go to different school; who knows if we will be friend anymore. Friendship is never a lasting relationship.

P/S: my goals for this break haven't been achieved. I failed to stick to the plan because I just don't feel like doing it. I'm a loser. ShET. I'm going to start learning programming when I'm in the library at school because I will probably have a lot of free time when I'm only taking 12 credits. Heck. I will dedicate my time doing something productive and which has a very important link with my career. Hopefully!

Just to update

It's been awhile since I've written the previous post tehee so today I'm planning to give a shout-out on how's my life going so far. Sorry guys, I've been on spring break mode after Thursday last week after that final exam. I think I did pretty okay on the Calc 2 exam. I'm very confident in myself lol. I expected to get an A on the class if nothing goes wrong. Over the break, everything is going slow and nothing new. I would just wake up every morning and do the same routine every single day. I want to change my habits from being a laid back life to something productive and challenging. Sometimes, I should walk out of my comfort zone and travel to a new promising land.  What I mean by that is I will be doing something productive and learn new things over the break. I just ordered a laptop recently and can't wait for it to be sent home but it won't be until 4/2 which it sucks. I made promises to myself that when I have a laptop then I would be learning coding over the spring break however the plan failed since I ordered it too late. So here I have compiled a list of goals that I should be doing over the break:
GOALs:
1) Read news/ books
2) Working out everyday at least 30min
3) Learn a programming language
4) Less online games and youtube
5) ... will update when I think of more

Today is the day!

Just in 20 minutes, I will be taking the Calc. 2 final. Half I feel like I just need to get this over with and half nervous don't know what the test is going to look like. ShEt! I'm kinda satisfying that I did a little bit of studying today. But hell naw, I met my firend in the library while I was trying to study and then after that I was spending my time with him chatting about unrelated stuffs. So pissed! I gotta go in like 5 minutes and I'm feeling nervous right now. Shjet. Hoping I'm gonna do fine. Please let me get an A! Pleaseeeeee.

Disappointed!

I'm totally disappointed at myself today, feeling like a loser so I'm going to tell you. Today, I decided to stay home since it was raining hard when I woke up and I'm not feeling like get dress and get outside (I'm still kinda regret for this, such a lazy asshole). So I thought that if I was to stay home then I would still get all my work done on time BUT it's not like what I expected. When I was on the computer, I didn't even bother to think about anything school related. All I did the whole day were listen to music, facebook, read news, and LOL. Now looking back, I'm such a time-waster and a slacker. No wonder why I would never get better at anything since I always put things off and rush them on the last minute. If I wanted to change my life then I gotta take a step up and change my lifestyle now otherwise it would be a big fail in the future. I keep thinking Calc final was no big deal and just procrastinate and procrastinate until now. I didn't study hardly at all today BECAUSE I'm at home. I don't get that learning attitude when I'm at home, I know it's weird but true, F*ck. I should just go to school. F*ck LOL game (it's a big time-waster), F*ck the Internet for making me become addicted and dependent on it. Now I'm just blaming everything I could think of. F*ck myself. Ok tomorrow is the big day, I could win it or lose it. I have to dedicate 3 hours tomorrow to study for this fking final. I'm serious I'm gonna do it for real.. not putting this off anymore. I'm commited to change. Let's see how it goes...

Work Plan for Tomorrow!

Since I only have 1 final exam left on Thursday for Calc 2, I will dedicate all my time tomorrow to study and ace this exam. I shouldn't be underestimating the test for my grades for the previous exams were pretty high (98% on both - I'm not trying to brag about this but hey this is something I should be proud of lol). I need a 71% on the exam to get an A. If everything is as I predicted then I should be able to ace is if not then I'm doomed, I'm gonna hate myself for not viewing education as priority but game and web. I would be a loser if I don't get an A on the final! I hope that stress enough how important grade is to me. Last term, I already got a solid B on Calc.1  which I didn't try hard and I knew it, however, this term I got a good professor, a reference, and my confidence. This is an only chance that I could raise my GPA. Take the opportunity!!!

Work plan for tomorrow (expected):
9 AM: Get to school
9 - 11:30 AM: Calculus Review/ Study.
12 AM - Go home
12:30 to 1 PM - Lunch/ Break
2 - 4 PM: Continue study

Ps: Use time wisely, no slacking off, get the work done!

Hello World!

This is my first ever attempt to create a blog. From now on, this will be the place where I will post all the stuffs (journal + IT related works + secrets :P). Of course I will public everything so if anybody interest in my life, welcome to read my blog. Thank you for spending your precious time reading!

M.P.